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Lisa Baird's avatar

"Sadness, anger, depression, those were not allowed in my house as a child and so for decades they were not allowed to fully express in (and through) my body." This was me too! My mom told me ad nauseum "Don't cry, Lisa". So, I disassociated too, wearing a smiling face through the sadness, anger, depression caused by being emotionally abandoned by my caregivers. It's been quite liberating to live in ALL of my emotions this past decade. I've learned when they show up, they all have something to teach me :) Beautiful share Jocelyn and love your poetry too!! XO

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Friend, I always love how raw and authentic your writing is. I think it's sad, yet relatable to so many that when we were growing up, it was more important to suppress your true feelings and keep that brave face at home and even more so in public. It's heartening in a way to read experiences like yours and so many others on Substack, including myself, who have come to the awareness of how much this trauma has affected our lives even to present day. I truly admire your courage always to share yourself here.

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